May 1, 2008

  • I am getting really bad at this.  I have no passion for writing currently.  It is most likely related to my Tech Writing class which i just wrote a 25 page manual for... Sorry.  My 21st birthday was a couple days ago, I was very unenvenful, and I don't notice a difference.  The only difference is I got a new liscense and my picture is on the other side...  I have kind of been down in spirits lately, I don't know if it was because I was too stressed with this semester or if I was just going crazy with loneliness.  Chris comes home tomorrow, so hopefully part of that will be cured!  My school ends in a week, than there is finals week.  I have to actually take a final in each class... 6 of them.  Two on monday, two on tuesday, and 2 on wednesday... NOT FUN.  Then the monday after finals week I start intersession for three weeks, than summer school for 5 or 6, than fall intersession for 2 weeks.  I basically have no break!  I guess this will get me ready for next summer, being married and having to get a job to support Chris and I!  Boy it feels good to say that next summer, as in summer 2009, I will be married!  I just hope I can find a job when we move.  I was kind of calculating things last night, and if we got a house with about the same mortgage payment as I have now, than I will need to make about $13 and hour just to pull that off and be able to pay bills in one month.  I doubt anywhere would hire me for that right away, but that would be nice!  I thought about getting into theatre again, but I don't know of anyone that would hire a techy for $50 a show like I got when Copperfield was in Branson.  Boy that was really nice with two showes a day.

    Anyways, I hope I don't feel so bummed this summer, and I hope I can be a happier person because I am getting very frustrated feeling like this.  I dont feel very well in my faith right now, and I wish I could change that.  I recently have felt the urge to go out and take pictures, and I have, so that feels nice again.  But I just feel drained all the time.  Not drained enough to keep me from getting to things or working out but just slow, and draggy all the time.  I guess tired, and mopie.  Well on a better note Chris is coming home tomorrow, and it should be a good night if people show up for my movie night to help celebrate my birthday!  We shall see...  Oh but what movies to watch?!

     

    Keep the faith.